Celebrating the Holidays while Grieving Loss of a Loved One
holidays while grieving
          Celebrating during the holidays while grieving the loss of a loved one is tough! You want to just crawl back into bed and pull the covers over your head and sleep. The pain becomes exponential especially during this time because a lot of the holiday traditions are based around family time and being together. The Hallmark movies and cards don't really help much either! Don't you hate it when you're just not feelin'it and can't...

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How Sky Diving Made me a Better MOM
how skydiving made me a better mom
Be a Better MOM How could sky diving from a perfectly good plane make me a better MOM? I'm a wonderful mom and do everything for my girls and put them first. I'm one of the best moms going! Or so I thought. Everyone tells me this, including my husband, but they couldn't see the struggle behind the surface. Homeschooling, constantly running girls around here and there and everywhere, months without a break for even a simple manicure or dinner...

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Shattered, Torn, Together Slowly: My Heart One Year after Losing my Brother
How to Cope with Grief as a Mother
Shattered, Torn, Together Slowly I'm writing this post nearly one year after losing my brother. Shattered, torn, together slowly are words from a poem I wrote as a 13 year old girl.  Hard to believe what was going through my mind to write those words at that young age. Then I quickly recall my life as a teen and how turbulent it was for our family during that time. Our parents' marriage was ending.  We were facing change among the...

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Why Fireworks on 4th of July aren’t the Same Anymore
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It's our first 4th of July to watch fireworks from our boat this year. The girls were excited and we grabbed our life jackets and headed out onto the lake. We went to the parade yesterday and saluted our veterans as they passed in their patriotic floats and golf carts. Pride and gratitude filled my heart as tears trickle from my eyes. I couldn't help but think of my brother who I lost in late February.  You can read more...

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How to Stay Healthy with Grief after Death of a Loved One
Staying healthy while grieving the loss of a loved one or friend is not an easy task.   I keep waiting for a text from my brother to tell me to have a good run or how crazy I am for waking up early when I don't "have" to. The text never comes. We were friends as well as siblings. This friendship was ripped out of my life one ordinary Thursday morning while I was in spin class. Little did I...

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5 Ways To Stay Healthy After the Loss of a Loved One
health and grief #grief #healthy
Have you lost a loved one or friend? Here are 5 ways I found helped me stay healthy after the recent loss of my brother. I'm no stranger to death and gave my first eulogy at my dad's funeral when I was 18, second at my grandmother's at the age of 27, and spoke at my brother's memorial service last month at 39. Each death was sudden and unexpected. I've lost grandparents, uncles, and cousins and it never seems to...

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How to stay healthy and fit even with fear
Face your fears through fitness
As I drove to Crossfit this morning, my stomach turned in knots like usual.  Despite the queasiness I felt, I was still giddy and excited to see the WOD (workout of the day). I was first introduced to Crossfit by my dear friend Jenni and still have the feeling of the new kid in school during my early drives to the box (place where WODS and wonderfulness happen). One of the things I love about Crossfit is that it’s never...

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